sleepless nights

sleepless and alone, seemingly

the fragments of my friend shine through the window

glowing for the universe to see

breathing in

i step up and out of bed

move towards her, my friend

shining bright, starlike

even when my eyes close

the dim sky illuminates

by her reflection of the sun

up i look

into a vacuum in its vastness

space

silence

peace

nothingness and formlessness

it’s quiet down here

far, far, far

so many fars away…

But i am.

thankful, for if I were any closer

there would be no “i” at all

only space

lots

lots of

(space)

I would be

(space)

but no,

with no i’s to dot

truth is

there’d be space

with no awareness under no moon, no stars

above no mountains, no valleys, no seas

so i will see them while i can

but before I hop into bed

i breathe out

and bring a little

(space)

back with me

then count sheep